Coping

I'm not sure that fear ever goes away. No matter how far out we get, no matter how many clean scans, it lurks in a closet waiting...

I agree with everything written: make the healthiest choices possible and embrace the moments we have. The only thing I might add is to give yourself permission for the rough days. For me it was often a scan or test that yanked the fears out of the closet and demanded I confront them. It's so very normal to be afraid, and the only way to deal with it sometimes is to walk through it. Remember there was a day when an initial diagnosis was your greatest fear, and you had the strength to manage it, overcome it, and move on. Trust in yourself that while it's okay to be afraid, should you ever need to, you have the inner stregnth to do it again.

I suggest you concentrate on the idea of surviving and living rather than the prospects of dying. Do positive things that make you happy, be with positive people and start enjoying life. Try meditation, healing drumming, anything to get your mind off of the negative vs. the positive. Visualize the cancer leaving your body for good and that your body will kill of the cancer cells if they return. Believe it! Believe in yourself and the ability to heal. Also take dietary steps to keep your immune system up and running-avoid sugars if possible, eat more greens, cut out dairy and eat meat only in moderation. Exercise the mind and the body and you will be on the road to healing and living out the rest of your days at peace.